Numb

It doesn't feel like I'm part of your life right now. You might as well not be here at all...it feels the same way, so what difference does it really make?

Ugh, why do I feel so chaotic right now?  Why does it never feel like you'd be someone who could find me in the darkness?  I want to be found, all the time...but you give up too easily when I push you away.  It's almost like I'm just another person in your life...you don't act like you need me at all; all you have are your sweet words and busy work.  Maybe you really don't, and are just attached to romantic ideals, or maybe I try too hard, and give too much, making it easy to take me for granted.

I'm sorry for making this so hard.  Maybe I just need to let it out.

::rain::